Ellie

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In an effort to a)figure out how to use this platform (omg fifteen years is a long ass time to forget everything) and b)meet some people, let's do the snowflake challenge.

I'm Ellie. Cis female, lesbian, xennial, feminist, grown up fangirl.

I turned forty in September and it was as wonderfully freeing as turning thirty. I genuinely love getting older.

I'm single-and-LOVE-it and I live a delightfully cosy life in Vermont, which is something teenaged me would be gobsmacked to hear.

I work as the student supervisor for an Ivy League library, where I hire, train and supervise the students who work the information and circulation desks. I love my job. I deserve to be paid more and I despise both library and college administration, but I love being a queer, feminist mentor to the baby queer students who have more confidence and self-acceptance than I can ever hope to achieve.

I am a third of the way through getting my Masters in Liberal Studies through the college. I'm taking the Creative Writing track and loving every second. I waited a long time to go back to school and it was the right moment, the perfect timing, and I love how it's changing me for the better.

I have been in fandom since I was eighteen. I started reading Backstreet Boys f/m fiction and around the time I started college, I was introduced to LiveJournal. I cannot imagine what my life would look like if I hadn't.

I was very quickly introduced to popslash - specifically Nsync - and it was my whole life for a while. I started writing and it was an exhilarating time. Maybe I've been chasing that feeling ever since.

I've been an RPF/RPS girl since then. There have been occasional stopovers in media fandoms. I wrote some wincest during the first two seasons of Supernatual. I was OBSESSED with Malex during the first season of Roswell, New Mexico. I love 911 Lonestar's Tarlos but DESPISE the way they (like the other non Rob Lowe characters) are treated. 2020 brought the joy (and eventual heartache) that is Julie and the Phantoms. But I will always be an RPF-er at heart. If I latch onto a movie or show, it's guaranteed RPF is not far behind.

My RPF fandoms include the Bandom heyday (what a rush that was), Jonas Brothers for a few weird months in 2009, One Direction (I was there for ALLLLL OF IT) until the hiatus in 2015, Call Me By Your Name RPF (wow, I still don't know what to say about that) and in 2018 I fell hard for 5 Seconds of Summer.

You can find my fic, beginning in 2018, on AO3. In a fit of stupidity, I orphaned everything before then at the end of 2017. One of my goals for this month is to go back and find all those old stories and link them here, because sometimes I get nostalgic and want to re-read my old shit.

I hardly wrote anything in 2021 and the last thing I posted was in July. I miss being engaged with fic writers - even if we don't have fandoms in common - and I have been trying (and failing) to create a daily writing habit since year one of getyourwordsout.

Since my hope is to use this journal for all aspects of my life, here are some other things:

Psych is my favorite television show. I can't watch tv - I get too anxious that something bad is going to happen and I'm too easily triggered. But every single night I fall sleep to Psych. I quote it randomly and still laugh at the same dumb jokes. It is my comfort show. Also, if Psych isn't on, then it's Phineas & Ferb.

I was diagnosed with ADHD in September and it was life changing. I spent most of my life really and truly believing that I just wasn't good at being a person. The diagnosis, the treatment, the therapy and some excellent social media have improved my life beyond words.

I learned to crochet through Youtube a few years ago and since my diagnosis opened up a world beyond lying listlessly in bed, I have been spending almost all of my free time crocheting. Things I made this fall that I'm most proud of include a rainbow pillow, shawls for my aunt and grandmother, a sweater for my sister's pug and a pair of Christmas stockings for my sister and her husband.

I used to love to read as a teenager. Then, aside from inhaling all regency romance novels I could find, I stopped. I get super caught up in what I "should read" and it ends up being something I hate. I'm trying to read more this year while also only reading things I want to.

If you read even a sentence of this, thanks a billion. You're a gem.